to ruu, my bestest friend forever and my idolhello good ol' pal o' mine. we have been through thick and thin, the good and the evil, the ups and downs, fire and water, yet here we are, about to kiss passionately, alive and full of youth!i honestly have no idea how we've lasted for so long. who would've known that on that fateful day of 2021 we would become the duo mess that we are now. you're irreplaceable (to the left) and you are the only person i could trust with my whole life. i respect you a lot for putting up with me all these years, and you are the only one who has seen me at my worst and knows of my deepest, darkest secrets...we did have our falls; it didn't feel the same without you when we stopped talking. i feared that that would be the end of us, but we just walked the prank, and thankfully, we're back to being friends. hallelujah! i prohibit you from ever cutting me off. you know too much about me, so i will hold you at gunpoint if i have to so you can stay my friend. when talking with others, i can't help but feel disappointed when they don't get me like you do. out of everyone i've been with, you are the closest one to actually understanding who i am. you have a special place in my heart, and i'd even go so far as to say that you're like family to me. hopefully there's nothing that could separate us now; i think it'd be too late to turn back. i'd sell both my kidneys if it meant having you by my side. i'm glad to have someone i can banter with, feel comfortable ranting to, and have somewhat deep conversations with; there's never a time where i feel bored in your presence. it's like i can tell you everything, and i want you to know i'm here for you too. you're so cool and no one can outmatch you. just know that i've always got your back~i love you lots, and when i pass away, you'll be the first i haunt ;)

to isa, my yaoiuri buddy and partner in crimehello isabella. can you believe it's been 100 days since fate brought us together... i love you so much please don't die. i think back on us many times and i don't ever regret being your friend.despite our timezones, i love every short conversation that we share, and it's always nice to wake up to your random stories. i don't know how much i show it, but i truly do enjoy your company. i've missed you a painful amount when you were on vacation, but now that you're back, i hope we can continue our yaoi sessions. you're very supportive, and i couldn't ask for a better partner. i don't usually look forward to my birthdays, but you've made this year's so special. i'll never forget your kind words towards me as well as the edits. that thoughtful gift meant so much to me that i wonder how lucky i am to have you. i feel comfortable with you, as if we've been buddies our whole lives. i won't ask, want, or need a yaoi buddy who isn't you. talking to you brightens my mood, so let's keep being silly together because i'll in no way tire of it. we are every yaoi duo there is and has yet to be. i get so oddly stupid around you that i'm starting to think that you suck the brain cells out of me while i sleep. if that's the case, at least spare me one. i want to do more with you, such as play games and do other dumb things i can think of. every little thing that you and i send to each other—the goodnight gifs, the cat gifs, and whatnot—are small yet admirable gestures that i guiltily take for granted. if you thought your message back then was cheesy, then mine took the cake.you will forever be my watson, i love you - your sherlock ♡

to xin, my apparently brotherxin, xin, xin. where do i even begin? just to save your time, i have nothing nice to say about you. fifteen years of knowing you is way too long and shouldn't be possible. you don't even respond to my messages, so you won't get any nice treatment from me.that aside, i suppose you're cool when you try to be. most of the time, you're an asshole, and i feel like i should be paid for being your friend. anyway, you mean a little bit to me, i suppose. i'd have the heart to attend your funeral, but i'd probably be stifling a laugh rather than shedding tears. while you may be a huge jerk, i know i could always count on you in dire times of need. you get the job done, you don't disappoint, and you're also really loyal, but that's about all the good things i can say about you. i don't know what you do with your life or how you're doing, but try not to die so early. surprisingly, i long for you from time to time. you kind of just come when i call for you, and you do whatever i tell you to, like a dog. and here i thought we were over that era, though it seems as if it truly does run in your blood. thanks to your heroic deeds, i owe you more than i'd care to admit. don't get yourself into too much trouble—or do—it doesn't matter to me either way. after all, you've had to deal with my messes multiple times before. where's the harm in returning the favor? still, do cut me some slack.i love you, xin.